Tuesday, July 20, 2010

闷啊

feeling bored today
the school makes me yawn
the textbooks make me yawn
even the weather makes me feel sleepy too
haiz
hav a syarahan today
i tried to make myself relax
but i failed
i ve said the wrong script from the very beginning
=p =p =p =p =p
forget it
hope tat the teacher wont figure it out
haHA //praying...//
i hav to mention
it was INDEED an incident
accidentally fell into sleep yesterday
at about 8 something at nite
without even a sign
KEKKO
woke up at 5am today
with my homework undone
karangan unwritten
n a class test even without revision
clap clap //congratz....// lolz
almost late for school today
okey i admit
i m ''a few'' minutes late today
but luckily the teacher is busy enough to ignore me
haHA
din bring textbook to school today either
feeling lik daydreaming the whole day
n went through everything wif my eyes half closed
hardly to imagine how i gave my syarahan rite?
haHA
but i did it
yeah me
//lolz....//

Saturday, July 17, 2010

你不懂我

"u dont know me~nobody knows me~"
i often heard tat from my frens these days
even myself did say tat
but
if we think it in an another way
do we understand our frens too?
do we really know everything about them
or wat r they thinking in their mind every moment?
NO....we dont
mayb the answer is hurting
but its the truth
an unsuspectable fact
everybody has their own secret in their heart
which is unreachable by anybody else except for themselves
nobody ll b able to tell all their secrets to a person without preservation
its impossible for a human
cos we...as humans...
hav too much cheating n faking around us
its not tat we dont trust our frens at all
but juz a natural protection of ourselves
so...how could we expect somebody else to know us throughly
without understanding them well?
dun b so greedy
if we hav a really good fren around us now
we should cherish him/her
he/she mayb dun understand us as well as we expected
but undoubtly
he/she is the only person who you can share yor emotion wif
cherish them
dun let them down juz bcos of yor own greed
everybody were juz a passer-by in yor life
YOU r the main character
YOU own yor life
dun let OTHERS conquer yor mind
RESPECT yor own idea
LIVE YOR LIFE

..................................................................................

an advice for a fren^^



梦游

今天 生物老师在上课时讲到了梦游
她说梦游可能是一个人在长期的压力下
因没有时间去做想做的事时而只好在睡眠中去进行
但我们却不由有任何的感觉或意识
也就是说
只要到了夜晚
我们的潜意识就会掌控我们的身体
这副空虚的躯壳
说到这里 我有点起毛了
强调一下 是“有点”哦
因为 更惊悚的在后头
过后 她又微笑着吐吐舌说
“所以啊~现在的我们可能都只是在做着一场梦,
而真正的‘自己’并没有感觉。
等到真正的‘自己’醒来时,
才忽然发现,这一切一切只不过是一场梦。”
说到这里 我很佩服自己没有昏倒
我...我是指“现在”的我...
真的只是个潜意识吗?
而当那个“真正”的我醒来时,
我,真的就会这样消失吗?
在这班上,在这世上的每个人,
都只是在梦游着吗?
一个个...虚无而缥缈的潜意识吗?
很多疑问 却得不到解答
那时的我慌了
我一直以来认为的,活生生的“自己”,
原来一直以来都不是“真正的自己”...
那种感觉真的很难以形容
“所以,在这世上真的有人能在病床上一动也不动的,
就过完他的一整生咯~”
这是她说的
但过后,她又补充
“就算是这样,我们还是能凭着自己的意识,
制服潜意识,而改变或主宰自己的梦。
在梦里头,一切都是合理的。”
一切都是合理的?
用意识制服潜意识?
那...该多难啊
而...如果...假如...
我真的只是个“潜意识”的话
那...我是否也会在那一天...
被那“真正的自己”的潜意识给制服而取代了呢?
那“我”...真会这样就消失了吗?
“我”...真的只属于夜晚吗?
太多疑问 得不到解答
只能一再的
在我的“梦中”
徘徊