add oil ba

really hav to admit

exams are really around the corner now

the point is

these are big exams man~

PMR...Sec 3 UEC...Final Exam...

cant play around now

my dad is quite strict nowadays

that really makes me feel stressed

i used to hav no worries n tension about exams in the past

but now

i m not so sure about it anymore

the busy school life really makes me feel annoyed

extra thick text books n class tests n blah blah blah

i found something weird about myself recently

the third exam hav juz past

n all the class testing n extra homework stopped for a sudden

my busy school life suddenly become so leisure

n i suddenly hav so many extra time to do sth i really wanted to do since the first day of 2010

reading novels

watching TV

exploring facebook n blogs for hours

this feeling...it should b lik in heaven

but i m feeling really peculiar rite now

AND I DUNNO WHY

since when leisure has became so alien to me?

its juz lik i hav not stopped busying since the beginning till now

n when i finally hav the time to relax myself

i found that i hav oredi blended into the busy life

haHA

indeed ironic

how yearn i m for school holidays in the past

how desirous i m about having a small break during the schooling days

but now

i feel nothing

no happiness

nor anxiety neither

really hoped that i could juz sleep for the rest of my life

n never wake up again

but I KNOW I CANT

bcos these r my responsibilities

i hav to accomplish for the sake of myself

my future...my family members...my teacher...etc.

how many decades exactly do we really hav in a lifetime?

work hard ba~you hav only one chance to live~

wish me luck

wish you all the best too^^

我的自由

this kinda feeling

its suffocating

really feel lik i m not myself anymore

shuttling between me n tis peculiar feeling

its annoying

its frustrating

its irritating

really feels lik i cant stand it anymore

let me alone

give me a break

please

although i know tis is not the best timing

2 more months

i m countdowning

60 more days

1440 more hours

86400more minutes

to my freedom....

absolutely...freedom...

我不是笨蛋XD

lolz....

kena scolded by a fren

oways calls me "stupiak"...囧

(u should know who tis fren is liao hor~)

haiz

actually i m not tat desperate about ppl around me lah

i know i still hav true fren

who care for me truely lik u guys

as well as some in CHHS

but i juz cant resist my annoyance towards those faking ppl

though they r indeed no harm to me

n tats is not my business either

haha

juz my conscience who seems desperate ba..=D

(p/s:dont doubt~u oways hug the Buddha's leg~i hug Jesus'^^)

继续生活

found somthing interesting in other's blog

[ 我发现今年我心态上转变了很多

换做以前的我我会很怕一个人

怕一个人下课

怕一个人出门

怕一个人看电影

可是今年我突然发现

其实一个人没有什么不好啊

没有必要勉强自己去加入完全没有兴趣的话题

没有我想要谈的

就静静地坐在位子上做什么都好

有人说"你最近变到很静哦~"

我笑"有吗?" ]

indeed the same situation

happening on me

but i think tat nobody really noticed about it ba

though i still smile

though i still joke

its different now

some kind of 'annoyed' i think

in front if those faking things

but it has became numb in me now

it seems normal

its omost everywhere

the WORLD is not a WORLD anymore without these things

so accept it ba

its a general fact now

^^

recently

haHA

never give yorself too much hope if u dun wanna get hurt

tats wat i oways believe in

no matter in the past or now

the future?

i dunno

i wonder~