B.U.S.Y.

oh my goshhhhh!!
我不应该在这里的呀！
T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T
明知道明天有chemistry测验+武术表演rehearsal
还要熬夜赶出投稿《联合早报》的篇章
为什么我会在这里？？！！
haiz, 最近被老师叫去写一篇800字的新闻
关于学校近来的活动的，说什么要寄去报馆
天，人家才上南侨不到一个月就要人家写这种东西
对这件学校还没有feel啊
真担心我会写着写着就写成“中化中学”了！
呵呵
现在在收集学校历年来的资料
忙忙忙
要新年了，倒数6天中~^___________^
再熬多几个晚上吧
很快就能回去了~
要继续忙了，掰咯~

J.M.3.R.E.N.

今天看回了“2010年初三仁”

呵呵，看着看着，突然觉得2010年的我们好遥远哦

那个快乐的初三仁

当时，阿鸟不停地在倒数着统考

佩琪也不停地叮咛大家要读书，统考快到了

然后大家战战兢兢的进考场，打了一个星期的仗

最后就是凯泫的呐喊

中华“仁”民解放军得到真正的解放了，中华“仁”民共和国，欢乐时光来了！

呵呵 之后大家又在忙班旅，忙班刊

韵姿不停地催催催，西瓜不停地要班委名单

还有朝翔的帐号不停地被盗用=.=

呵呵

最后，快乐的班旅也结束了

大家各奔西东

有的进理科，有的进商科

而我，却与大家隔了一条无边境的国界

看了这些照片，想起从前的回忆，有笑，有泪

不禁又让我感伤了起来

可是，这次却掺杂着笑容

因为，我在想念的，不再是一个人的孤单

而是一群人的快乐~~^___^

我爱 · 初三仁

好想念初三的时光啊！！！！！！！

M.I.S.S.I.N.G..U.

这是在学校的第二个星期
我想麻坡，想了整整14天，或更久
我自己也不知道有多久
只是每一个早上醒来、上学、放学、回宿舍、做功课、睡觉
像机器一样，每天重复的作着同样的事
每天机械式的，想念
刻骨铭心的想念
这个星期，我过的很忙
功课开始多了，测验也接二连三的来了
课外活动加上挥春比赛
还有心理上的压力
没办法，SG都会用一种奇怪的眼光看待scholars
我不知道为什么
我有试着和他们混在一起
可是却常常有种被隔在世界外的感觉
完全插不进去
在他们眼里，我不过是中途加入的一位同学
还是一个跟他们抢好成绩的scholar
就是这样，没了
我试了，我真的试了
原来，被拒绝了那么多次，心里是会难过的
淡淡的愁痛，却是发自内心的
但是，我不会放弃的
即使从前没经历过这种难受
我依旧愿意挑战，我不是个那么容易就放弃的人
^___________^
最近常冒雨回宿舍
虽然有雨伞，可是好像起不到太大的作用~
结果走着走着，鞋子湿了，书包也湿了
几乎每天都这样，得自己从mrt站走回去
真的，还蛮累的
可是，我却依旧加紧步伐
我不想让自己松懈，所以就照样让自己这样累着
每天晚上，看着黑黑的一片
我都会发呆很久、很久
我知道我想麻坡了
我知道。。。我快哭了
可是我压了下来
让自己忙碌，让自己累，就是不让自己哭
5天阿，漫长却又瞬间的五天
刚刚在厕所时，还是忍不住，哭了
眼泪温温的，掺在洗澡水里，还是感觉得到
冲了半个小时才出来
现在终于了解到慧卿老师讲的那种想家的感觉了
自己躲在厕所里哭，真的很丢脸
以前的我或许会这样想吧
可是现在不会了
因为，我真的很想麻坡
好想、好想、好想。。。。。

A.L.O.N.E

看来以后的blog都得用华文写了
因为某人的投诉 (=P~秘密)
昨天熬夜写了札记
就是那种好像心情小记的的那种文章
华文老师“特别”要求留学生写的
结果，写着写着，就哭了
从家人，写到朋友，在写到中化
在麻坡的一切一切
眼泪，就这样一滴一滴的落在稿纸上
克制不了
完全失控了
今天早上起来，眼睛肿肿的
因为我又接下去哭了一整晚 （-.-)
这是我第一次在别人面前哭得那么惨
昨晚，和室友抱在一起哭
越哭越够力，就干脆不睡觉
看着漆黑，不断的回想起在麻坡的一切
想妈妈爸爸、弟弟妹妹、阿麼
想朋友、想中化、想师父
晚上这样，早上也不例外
尤其是上华文节的时候
我的眼睛从头到尾都是湿湿的
隐隐约约，我好像又听到了慧卿老师教课的声音
还有凯泫跟明慧的斗嘴声
听到《背影》，听到《那年的草色》
听到《马说》，听到《小石潭记》
还有《满江红》《枫桥夜泊》《春夜喜雨》
《女娲补天》《愚公移山》《矛盾》《为学一首致子侄》。。。
很多很多我以为自己都快忘了的课文
忽然的全部拥了上来
呵呵，看来我比自己想象中的更喜欢华文课呢
这里的华文。。。我真的不知道给怎么讲
马来文也是，我的第一堂马来文课竟然是朗读"puteri gunung ledang"
彻底的空蒙 (-.-)
原来，这里和我想象中的差了很多呢
没错，他们的英文真的是变态级的
教学方针也比中化好
设备更加不用讲
可是，我想，我是不会爱上这里的吧
这里的人，连基本的尊重都不懂
老师在讲课，他们能够若无其事的犯规，却又那么的理所当然
对于这点，我很反感，反感至极
就算他们在怎么厉害，成绩在怎么好
我也不会佩服他们
这个地方，是个没有灵魂的城市
没有根，我找不到根
在中化，华人的根无所不在
但是这里，却像是在贫瘠的土地上建起来的高楼大厦似的
很华丽，可是也很空虚
空虚的让人觉得战栗
在这里，我感到自己像个寄宿者
寄宿在别人的仓库里生活的寄宿者
突然，好像好像回到麻坡，回到中化，回到初三仁
那个平凡的小镇，有着浓浓的温暖
那个初三仁，让我有种回到家里的感动
那些，都是取代不了的
现在才真正的发现，身边所有的事务并非理所当然
朋友，家人，师长
他们的存在，不是理所当然的
当有一天，你发现他们都离开你的时候
你会真正的体会，这一切，是值得珍惜的
即使只是一句简单的问候，都会让你怀念、感动
呵呵，怎么办，现在好想哭呢
但是，我总不能一直这样哭下去吧
生活，还是要过的
即使身边都没人了，日子，还是要过的
等到了那一天
当我想起我的家人、朋友时，不再是哭泣，而是灿烂的笑着时
我会以自己为傲
为了这样的一天，痛，是值得的
为了让自己成长，这一切，都是值得的
值得的。。。。

T.O..J.E.S.S.Y

the reason u ll feel lonely even u hav so many frens around u
its bcos no one among them understands u thoroughly
ya, no one
there is no one in this world who ll know yorself more than yorself
cus sometimes, even u dunno yorself vry well too
emotions r really strange things
sometimes u ll feel so satisfied wif wat u hav now
but sometimes, u ll juz feel tat u r living all alone
nothing, n no one who is caring about u
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS YOU
u r lik living yor own life
watching others living their lives
n feel nothing
u ll not leave anything to them, nor to the world if u suddenly evaporate someday
u r lik, ya, some kinda passerby
EVERYBODY IS A PASSERBY IN LIFE
so why should i rely on others?
i hav nothing for them, not even my heart
wat makes me think tat i can rely on them?
wat if, i got used to tis kinda "reliance"
could i still live on my own for the rest of my life?
would i interupt the one i relied n bother her/his life?
m i that kinda thicked-face to get into somebody's life, juz to rely on her/him?
juz to let her/him share my sufferings n unhappiness?
juz to tie her/him by my side, forever?
EVERYBODY HAS THEIR OWN LIFE
I, as a passer-by, dun hav the authority to interupt
cus i m NOBODY
i dun wanna feel upset when i knew this fact in the end
so i choose to remind myself over n over again
i choose not to rely
but girl, do u know?
u cant rely, but u can share
u can share yor feelings, thoughts n emotions wif us
u will not tie anybody by yor side, u dun hav to
its meaningless, everybody ll leave someday
but, as a friend, i m willing to share my feelings wif u
no matter sadness or happiness
cos u r my friend, true hearted friend
dun think u r troublesome to others
there is no such word as "troublesome" to a true friend
although everybody hav their own life to live
but now, future, we r still friends
our life bcom joyful bcus of the ppl who can share our feelings around us
our family, our confidants, our buddies, our friends
these r the ppl who u can share, but not rely
i can understand y didnt u cry in front of ppl
u dun wanna expose too much emotions in front of them
that ll make u lose control n wanna rely
but pls, dun keep everything to yorself
this ll make yor heart feel burdensome
i m always here to share, there is always someone for u to share
FACE YOUR LIFE HAPPILY
GD LUCK, SMILE=)

缘.分.

discovered something extra SHOCKING juz now
guys, remember Chua Sing Teng蔡欣廷?
that cute little girl wif big eyes n two pigtails all the time
the genius girl who always got almost 100% in every of her exams
n left CHHS during primary three
remember now?
yohoho, guess what?
i juz ran into her on the corridor
that means, I AM IN THE SAME HOSTEL AS HER!
AND EVEN IN THE SAME SCHOOL!
shocking rite? dude this is pretty cool
sometimes we juz hav to believe in the word "缘分"
i thought i ll nvr meet her again in my life
but now we r living in the same building
juz next to each other (O.O!!)
yup, we sure r lucky
haha, recall the situation juz now was so hillarious
i juz came out from the washroom
finished brushing my teeth, but forgotten to bring my towel
i think i still hav some bubbles on my face (-.-)
when i was about to get into my room, she ran to me n asked whether i rmb her onot
"sorry, i forgotten to wear my specs on, i ll tell u when i got it."
then i went in, n came out again, n shocked
but i didnt recognize her (-.-)
"are u EMMY?"
"yaya"
"i m SIN TENG."
".............."
then i almost shouted out (embarassed-.-''')
lol, haha, but really amazed tat she could still recognize me
looks like my look didnt change too much afterall
still young n cute (~.~), wahahaha!
(dun puke, juz telling the truth~)
haha
online-ing now, again
but i dun mind, cus i m really in a gud mood rite now

^________________________^

extra ultra BIG SMILE~

B.O.R.E.D

HAIZ, boring life continues on
swt, nvr thought tat life in SG will b so boring
staying in hostel the whole day
lazy to go out either
luckily i hav my laptop wif me
or not? i really dare not imagine how my life ll b
BORED TO DEATH?
wow, quite a new dying style~ (-.-)
then? kept on online-ing , fb-ing...
i really need to consider ah niao's suggestion
"watch NARUTO from the vry first episode"
i know it sounds stupid
but life is so boring tat i bcame extremely abnormal until i cant even recognize tat the imbecile person who is sitting in front of the computer rite now was actually me
(-.-)
swt, dun doubt
except for "BORING"
i cant find another precise word to describe my situation here
HAIZ
i really look forward to school reopen
though many of them said tat SGs were haughty n ll look down on us n blah blah blah
but if i could get rid of this boring life
I REALLY DUN MIND
juz let me do something meaningful~~
OH GOD!