What I Want

life's getting torturing these days
exams are around the corners
waiting right in front of me
feeling a bit scared right now
i ve never face this kinda feeling bfor
NOT ONCE
its juz lik
i dun hav any confidence in myself
i m not sure whether i can bring up this burden
i dunno if i can withstand through the last few months...
time really flies
we hav to admit it
the day we are playing n shopping
celebrating birthdays
watching movie
buying novels shops to shops
n the other day
we are facing exams
REALLY BIG EXAMS
i hate this feeling
i hate excessive stress
i dun wanna b tied up by exams or homework n stuff lik that
i lik to b free
living a life with less tension n much much freedom
THAT'S LIFE
i dun understand
since we hav only a few ten years to live
why people always prefer to spend it hecticly?
why must they always rush through their lives?
why cant they juz sit down n relax n enjoy how llife should b?
mayb i am too IGNORANT to know it
but i m certain of one thing
I DUN LIK BEING TIED UP
IT IS REALLY ANNOYING + FRUSTRATING
two more months to go
hope that i am able to get back my confidence to face those challenging task
n also hope that i can cheer up as soon as possible
wish me luck~=D

I hate Myself

好久没上来了
是因为生活太忙碌
还是精神太劳累
我不知道 有差吗？
最近心情不怎么好
都不知道是老天在作祟 还是我自作孽
麻烦的事老是解决不完
那又能怎样？
难道就大喊一句“I cant stand it anymore”
然后丢下一切自甘堕落吗？
我不能 更不想 太不负责任了
但 最近却常常这样想
这样的我 肯定很惹人厌
因为 连我自己都开始讨厌这样的自己
没理想 没报负 只想倒头睡 永远不要醒来
我恨这样的自己！
就快了 我安慰自己
如果这点小失败都承受不起
那我以后 要怎么办？
我不要做脆弱的牙签
我不要做易碎的玻璃
我不想 连自己都照顾不好
看回blog里的一些post
真想把它们都删掉
它们 让我很泄气
开心起来吧 我可以的
我可以的。。。