Happy 2010

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haha...ok...juz kidding^^
anyway...
happy new year lah~~!
hope tat i could b more hardworking in the new year
b more serious n do my best in every thing
coz i dun wanna hav regrets
not a single one...
but still...
hav 2 enjoy myself in 2010 too lah
stressing myself?
it looks stupid...n i think i wont b so idiot lol...
mayb...==''''
so...
best wishes 2 all my frens
n those who i care about
hope tat u all can live a happier life in tis brand new year
4get all those unhappies in 2009
LETS WELCOME 2010 2gether man~~~!
HAPPY 2010~~~^^

i love avatar~~

went 2 school 2day
2 buy my sec3 text books
then went 2 watch movie wif my friends
called "Avatar"
i quite lik tis movie...personally
it is talking about the future
an ex-marine travelled 2 a planet called Pandora 2 fulfill his deceased brother's mission...
n the scientists there hav invented a combination of human n Avatar body tat is mentally n physically stronger than human(and larger 2...==''')
through tis...Jake was ordered 2 decietfully b frens wif the troupe of Navi's 2 get informations as there r a lot of wealth($$$...) below the jungle tat they protected
finally...Jack gained their thrust (yea...)
n found tat he had fell in lov wif a Navi girl (ow...)
but the army begin 2 attack the forest (shit...)
n the Navi's 2 stood strong against them (go go go...)
wif the dominant of their knowledge n skills (oleh oleh oleh...)
at last...
the Navi's overcome the evil n saved their homeland
yea~~~happy ending(......==''')
but still
glad 2 learn a few things from tis movie
1.humans r dangerous(i m one of them...)
2.war is terrible(especially those between atom boms n...dragons?)
3.giant lizards r my nightmare!!!(...it keep chasing human==''' n their teeth r terribly sharp man)
anyway
some parts in tis movie r quite touching
though...most of it is frightening...=='''
but still...cant deny...
I LOVE AVATAR!!!

......

2day is my grandma's birthday
she juz came back from Thailand
keep waiting 4 her these days
n she finally came back
but i cant celebrate her birthday wif her
coz she is still in KL
......i missed her>.<

finally back...

juz came back from x'mas holiday
at kl...sunway...
din write blog 4 a couple of days
coz i din bring my laptop along
quite regret 4 tat d
dunno why
feel tat tis trip was quite...boring
haiz
dunno wat 2 say about it...
but looked lik my younger sis n bros were quite enjoying themselves
afterall
we hav not been 2 a family trip lik tis 4 a long time
cos my mum n dad were busying on their own
but i know
tat were all bcos of us
isnt it?
anyway...at least smn enjoys the trip
tats enough 2 me
if they were happy...i think i ll b happy 2
cos they were my family
my most precious...family
still rmb
when i was in primary school
i used 2 believe in my friends...only in my friends
they were once the most important person in my entire life
but...these days
i found tat i cant put any faith in them anymore
except 4 those who were vry close 2 me
feels tat...they were ready 2 betray me anytime
...n i ll b the one who suffer the pain
dunno why
tis worry keep lingering in my mind...even in my dream
now...i am quite afraid 2 mix in my old friends 2
cos...i noe...i ll gonna b leaving...soon
mayb they dun even concern it
but...i cant stand it...i noe...
still...i hav 2 face it
no matter wat
haiz
hope tat i can b braver
n oso hope tat...i was able 2 leave those happy memories in their heart
not only bcos we noe each other 4 a long time
but oso...they r the ones...who were by my side...
when i was in the most dispirited time
no matter joyness or sad
we were always 2gather
tat time...i felt tat i was able 2 face any problems in my life
no matter how tough it is....b cos they were there...right by my side...
it was quite a sweet memory...really
though it looked quite impossible now
but
i still wanna keep it as a dream
a dream tat i wish i would never wake up...

开心~开心~

哇...全国陈氏太极锦标赛终于比完了...
误打误撞的被我拿了个季军...haha...几lucky一下...
可是丫...师父还是不肯放过我呢...555....得被捉去练兵器了...
haiz...我这个左撇子...看来以后会很辛苦lol...

金杯赛...二等奖^^

老朋友~~

哈哈...终于拿到老朋友们的照片了...开心开心^^
这次的聚会还挺难忘的...希望aik明年能早点回来lol...

啊~~~终于表演完了...

finally came back from Kluang
juz finished performing taichi
euhh...
relax now
cant imagine how nervous it is when i stand on the stage
almost everybody looking at me
OMG!!!
it is so so so scary
my legs' still trembeling when i thought of it
haiz....
it was so so so...
i oso dunno how 2 describe tat kind of feeling
it was juz lik yor mind was totally blank at tat moment
till u finally finished performing
wat happen juz now was juz lik a dream
BUT IT WAS NOT!!!
my godness sake...
din even noticed my own mistakes up there
but i was nearly 2 knock the wall when i look back the recording tape
it was BULLSHIT!!!
haiz...
feel tat i m so...tiny
standing in front of so many pros
but
i still believe i ll b juz lik them
................someday

又是葬礼...

yesterday
my great-grand father passed away
i m not tat shock actually
he had already smoke 4 93 years
and tat hospital is indded a bullshit
but
my mum was quite sad...and upset 2
she always thought tat great-grand father can make it till Chinese New Year
she even booked his favourite buffet 2 celebrate with him
....................................................
she looked so disapointed
watching her greatest hope juz fade away lik tis
but.....i cant do anything
neither 4 her
nor 4 myself
feels tat...i m quite useless sometimes
even 4 a no.1 student
haha..........

莫名の感觉...

今天和老朋友们有个聚会，挺开心的。见到了许久不见的朋友们，虽然面孔变得有些陌生了。但，某些程度上来说，我们彼此间还是有一种很熟悉的感觉。不知为何的。
随着一个个到来，我们的话题就不曾间断过。
从往事，聊到每个人的近况。
看来，中学生涯对我们来说，也并不是轻松的事呢!
但是，看到他们努力的适应着新环境，在陌生的校园里不断的成长，心里还是感到挺欣慰的^^
今天，他们又弹起钢琴来了。和以往一样。
每当看着他们两人在钢琴前一唱一和时，我的脸上总是绽放着笑容。
这应该是我对音乐的崇拜吧!我总是很羡慕会演奏乐器的人。从小就是这样。
但，没有人知道。
在他们面前，这笑容，特别......沉重。

废话。。。

started 2 hate holiday now
hav 2 stay at home whole day
nothing 2 do pulak
sibe sienz de lolz...
then leh...
juz bought some movie tis noon
but still dun think my holiday will b more interesting
4 juz sitting in front of the tv
lolz...
my dad oways grumble when i did tat
say wat everyday look at the idiot box lol...
looks lik an idiot lol...
vry meaningless lol...
haiz...
luckily he isnt at home the whole time
o not...
i m sure i ll go insane
much much earlier...
lolz...
cant meet with my friends during holiday 2
quite miss them d
din talk 2 them 4 a long time liao
although sometimes still meet on msn lah
haiz...
hope tat Aik will come back soon lol...
an old friend of mine...
din contact with him 4 about half year liao
haiz...
oso dunno wat 2 talk leh
even when we met each other
lolz...
i think Singaporian were much different with us liao lol
but...
still looking foward 2 meet him lah...
^^

生病了II。。。

feeling better 2day
but still dun hav much appetite
ate porridge the whole day
SHIT!!!
i prefer 2 die
.........................................................
juz finish practicing taichi
din thought it could b so tiring
haiz
i wanna rest now
dun even hav energy 2 walk
............................................................
juz watched some performance video tis noon
with my grandma
无可否认
they were damn great
quite admire them d^^
one of them was my childhood friend
from Beijing
din meet each other 4 quite a time
dunno he still remember me onot?
haha...
but i think we will meet...soon^^

无聊ing...

放假了...没事干...
就常在胡思乱想...
每次...不知为何...都会想起小学时那段回忆...
当时，还真是轻狂呢！天天都无忧无虑的。嬉笑，打闹，追逐...
还记得，我们当时一大堆令人头疼的‘丰功伟绩’。
也记得，我们如何在班上捣乱，闹得鸡飞狗跳的。
哈哈...常因为这样而被老师骂呢...到了中学也不例外。
到了现在，我还是会怀念...从前那个单纯好玩的我...
曾经，我们发下誓言，当永远的姐妹。
曾经，我们傻傻的顶撞老师，结果一起被骂，一起被掌嘴。
曾经，我们不知天高地厚地认为，会永远永远在一起，永远永远不分离。
当然，那，都已成为“曾经”了。
到最后，她和我都还是变了，彻彻底底的变了。变得陌生，变得互不相干。
你相信吗？我到现在，都还不知道为什么...
只记得，她要求绝交，而我也没拒绝。
傻吧？呵呵...一段友谊，就这样，从我手中白白地溜走...
不带任何痕迹地...
现在，不知，她还记得我吗？
........................................................................................................

回忆里的那片模糊...我忘了它有多痛...
但，却依然记得，它，永远是最甜美的。

生病了。。。

not feeling quite well 2day
got a terrible headache
OMG!!!
i hate 2 b sick!!!
cant do anything the whole day
cant sleep...cant c tv...cant even walk properly...
haiz...
luckily
feeling better now
juz ate some porridge
SHIT!!!
i hate it!!!
but still hav swallow it
coz her majesty was juz bside me
...............scary><

心情very very的不好...

quite down today...
finally finished my projects
but still rejected by her majesty
every single part of it
haiz...
dunno wat 2 do now
tired sia...
cant sleep either
DAMN!!!
i hate tis feeling
........................................................
juz cry 2day
in front of my sis
wat a shame
but
they looked....so alike
the way she act
it was juz lik...her
a person...in my childhood memory
though she betrayed me.....bfor
haha
still cant control myself
...i cried

boring。。。

i hav 2 repeat it again
holiday is damn BORING!!!
shit
totally don hav the mood to do things
though there r a mountain of projects waiting 4 me
haiz...
din stop exploring the internet
msn lah...blog lah...facebook lah...
BORING!!!
i m going insane!!!
lolz...
did a crazy thing tis noon
tried 2 make sambal on my own
slightly burn the whole kitchen
anyway
luckily it din catch on fire
onot...i cant imagine wat her majesty will do 2 me....
lolz...
better dun think about it
....i dun wanna visit a nightmare^^

被骂了。。。

SHIT!!!
holiday is damn boring
juz ended a match at Keluan
another one is coming soon pulak
haiz...15 days 2 go...dear KL...

quite tired today
thought tat i could sleep on my OWN bed
but not in the lab
zzzzzzzzzzzzz....

juz got some scolding from her majesty tis afternoon
...tats my mum
scarier than the queen
haiz
got scolded juz 4 a camera...
stupid lah...wasting time lah...blah blah blah...

anyway
it is still the truth
isn't it?

i m lost。。。

糟糕，我迷茫了。

以前，总以为只要努力、坚持不放，就能成功，就是赢家。当然，那是以前。

现在，乱了。

一味的向前冲着，却没想过，我这个选择，到底是对的？还是错的？

有人说过，“机会是留给会为自己争取的人”。

那，有没有人可以告诉我，当机会不被祝福时，为自己争取，还有意义吗？那争取机会的人，不就像个傻瓜一样吗？

哈哈，我就是其中一个啊。

那个一头栽下去无法自拔，无论怎么努力都觉得不够的傻瓜。

哈哈。

天，你这个笑话，开得太大咯。

my first match...n first trophy^^

三天了~终于回到家里~感觉真好^^

比赛过了，拿到了个二等奖，开心开心^^

可是hor，这还真是得靠运气啦！（我可是最后一个二等奖呢！哈哈~~~）

比赛后……总觉得……自己真是微小呢……那天，高手满街跑，随手捉都有一把……但是，能在表演时应付恐惧感的却少之又少……唉，看来我还有很多东西得学呢……（何止多啊！）

比赛期间我也交了不少朋友哦！都是大哥哥们，个个又爱玩，又自恋……靠，得提醒自己千万别被他们污染了……像我这样纯洁的小孩……（完了！完了！）

总之呢！我还蛮喜欢这样的比赛的……真希望能够常常有机会参加……虽然成绩都垫底……

12月18日，又有一场比赛，但是……人数是这次的一倍……=='''

（啊~~~机会渺茫啊~~~~~）

紧张ing。。。

倒数半小时

我就要到比赛场地了去了

哎，这可是我第一次参加比赛耶……超紧张的说。

啊~~~不理了！管它是生是死，拼啦！

呜呜……这次真的豁出去了……

欲哭无泪ing

朋友one day trip

今天的天气超热的……天啊……快熔了……

今天和老朋友出去逛街看戏，我只能说，爽！

无忧无虑的，时而开开玩笑，时而谈谈心事。彼此打闹着、互相嘲笑着。不用顾及别人的眼光，想笑就笑，想哭就哭。

我很喜欢这种感觉……甚至，依赖。

真希望，能一直和她们这样下去……永远永远，自由自在的。

但，我想，那还是不可能的。

不是吗？

很down。。。

今天早上总算去练功了……可还是错误百出……（虽然没人看见^^）

不过呢，练着练着，竟下起雨来。哎，最近的天气还真是奇怪呢！

可是，近来才发现，原来比赛近得仿佛就在眼前，触手可及。可是…我却一点也没察觉到……

也许，就像他们说的吧！我还真是个后知后觉得主义者…………

……真是无药可救

苦水。。。

今天早上本来要到公园练练功的……谁知偏偏下了一场雨……唉，真扫兴。

昨天闲着没事干的，今天妈妈却突然丢了一大堆工作下来，害得我现在都还晕头转向的……唉，大人赚钱苦……小孩赚钱更苦! 一整天对着密密麻麻的abc……呜呜……薪水……都是薪水害得……金钱祸水!!!

最近，外婆又开始唠唠叨叨的了……也难怪啦……毕竟比赛快到了……

唉，第一次比赛，压力还真是大呢！弄得我把东南西北都搞乱了……呜呜……（隐约听见地理老师的叫骂声）（我：冤枉啊!!!）

算了，管它的! 把灯关了，睡一觉起来就没事了!

但愿如此………………

boring！！！

今天没下雨……可是风却很大……该死的冷……

无所事事的，又过了一天。

早上……吃了早餐……看书……

下午……吃了午餐……看戏……

晚上……吃了晚餐……上网……

结果遇到老朋友，一聊就聊到了十二点……

哎，日子过得真是慢……还真……闷！

wedding。。。

今天，难得的，放晴了……

我想，应该是因为洋今天结婚了吧！所以才不舍得降雨……不过，说真的，今天的婚宴还真是特别呢，而且场地也蛮漂亮的……说到底，新郎哥今天还真是可怜啊！又要主持婚礼又要表演华乐的……哈哈！他还真是我看过为了婚礼最“卖命”的新郎官呢……哈哈哈！

但是，愉快的婚礼后，我就无所事事了。放假的这些日子，才发现原来时间还真难消磨呢！特别是在长辈们吱吱咋咋的讲个不停的时候……妈呀！那时还真想回到家里睡大觉……

结果呢？被他们捉去又吃了一轮，偏偏我又是那种菜没吃完就会心痒痒的人……唉，清理是清理完了，但是，胃啊！你又受苦了！

回到家里，早就累坏了……胀着肚子，搞得我睡也不是……不睡也不是……唉，看来又得失眠了……

但是，眼皮又好重……好重……

发酒疯ing。。。

今天天气本来好好的……谁知下午下了一场大雨，却冲不走我一身的疲累……

几位死党下午帮我庆祝了生日呢！虽然已经晚了一天，但还是被他们整得挺惨的……哈哈，疯了整个下午，又扑克牌又麻将的，天啊！比遇上诈骗公司还惨……

结果，还能怎样呢？皮包瘦了一大圈……又整身奶油味的……唉，误交损友啊！

虽然如此，老天还是不会让我这样疯一整天吧……

今晚，偷喝了点酒。但，不知为何，却越喝越清醒……

也不知是走什么狗屎运，总算是见到了鼎鼎大名的“疯婆子”。哈！这女人的丰功伟绩可多了！也不过是个过门的媳妇嘛……又骂过我妈，又打过我外婆，又赶过我那年逾九十的太公……

哈哈，也对啊！人家也不过是个疯子嘛……不能说是她的错啊……屁！简直就在放屁！这样说的人肯定是烧坏脑子了！唉，可是啊，家里不爱惜脑袋的人还真是多呢……切！看她那张欠扁得要吐的脸……呵！我可没他们那么慈悲为怀，还真是能忍呢！即使是眼睁睁的看着自己的外公被赶出去，都不发一语……

不仅是那张臭脸，还有那个假惺惺的双面人。光看在别人面前的样子……恶！哼，乖巧？听话？拜托……人家可是金马奖最佳演员耶！光看他使眼色时那奸诈的样子……真是名副其实，实至名归啊……

总的来说，可怜的胃今天还真是受了不少苦……

happy birthday^^

今天是本小姐的生日呢！可惜啊~kl这儿还在下雨~搞得我都提不起精神来~~~

昨天没写blog，都怪那该死的palia hotel，害得我闷了半天~~~又没网上，又没事干，瞎耗了我两个钟头……真是的！浪费时间……

倒是今年的生日嘛……真不知是福是祸呢！

今天刚好是绿野书展的第一天，而我也刚好在kl，而又那么的刚刚好，我就在the mines附近~~~哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~超幸运的说~买了好多书呢！开心开心^^

可是嘛，回到家里的我已经有些疲倦了，心情不怎么好，脾气也怪差的，就……

唉，还是别提了吧~亲手毁了自己的生日……我还真是个超级无敌大笨蛋……

总的来说，有得过生日已经是一种奢侈了，我也从不埋怨什么。只是……他，还是忘了。

明明知道他是粗枝大叶的人；明明知道他连自己的生日都记不住；明明知道这种事情对他来说是没意义的……但，还是想让他记得呢！这一天……

果然，有一句话是对的：不要希望，就不会失望。

可惜啊~我偏偏就是那个笨的没药救又固执得要命的傻家伙~~

唉……也许，自己真的太天真了吧！

还是……太贪心了呢？

first day at home。。。

今天下了毛毛雨，感觉还蛮凉快的^^

今天是假期的第一天，整天在家，有没有人陪，还挺闷的……

之前上课的日子啊，总盼着快点放学，可以早点回家；现在放假了，怎么反而无聊起来了呢……没有老师念经似的教书声、没有放学时那令人振奋的敲钟声、也没有同学们应放学而忘我的欢呼声……现在的我只能对着电脑、看看书，感觉……怪怪的。

天啊！疯了！谁来救救我啊！！！（数蚂蚁ing……）

last day at school。。。

今天不下雨了……但风却不停刮着，快要把成日漫不经心的我吹走了……

今天是读书的最后一天，没能再跟他吵上多两句，还蛮可惜的……假期五十多天，日日都没有他，应该会很闷吧……该死的，我怎么开始依赖上有他的日子了。

今天，她没来，应该是病了。听说，她昨天已经有些不舒服了，还坚持为了我的生日做了个蛋糕……想了想，觉得还蛮对不起她的……毕竟之前嚷着她做蛋糕时，也只不过是想开个玩笑罢了，没想到……

听她的好朋友说，她……好像喜欢他呢，还一直跟我拿他的照片，说是要作弄她之类的……

不知怎么，听到这句话时，心有些不舒服呢……真讨厌这种感觉……

MINI MALAYSIA ONE DAY TRIP

最近参加了个一日游...在mini malaysia...
这是我第一次去呢....挺开心的说...
不过malaysia的天气还真不是盖的...天啊!!!实在是热哦....
跑跑跳跳了一整天...太阳特大下午十二点整还去了动物园...OMG...我们还真是不怕死呢...真有些佩服自己了...
不过呢...这趟一日游还蛮enjoy的...希望还能够和朋友们再出门玩玩咯...有机会的话^^

A MEMORABLE TRIP

这是我小学时的毕业旅行……它，对我来说，可是挺宝贵的回忆呢！呵呵，两年了……依稀记得，当时的我还天天大叫着:merdeka!merdeka!"的……哈哈，没办法呀，毕竟那时UPSR刚过，难免会兴奋一下下……^^现在想想，小学时期的自己还真是年少轻狂呢！虽然现在的我也没成熟到哪里去……当时的老朋友们，升学的升学，出国的出国，剩下的也都分到了不同的学校去……如今，偶尔相约聚一聚，聊聊天，互相吐吐苦水，也不赖呀！虽然我们没有常常见面，但，愿我们的友情不会变质咯……虽然我觉得不太可能……但还是好好珍惜眼前所拥有的吧！毕竟，不久后的将来，我也会离开这里呀^^留下的回忆，虽不能永远记在心中，但，偶尔回头望一望过去，依旧如此精彩……