现在的我 很迷茫
不是感到压力
也不是因为被背叛
只是 很单纯的 迷茫
是的
现在 未来 会有很多的事
很多未知的挑战等待着我
而我呢？ 当然是要克服 然后争取成功啊
但 我不知道 也找不到理由
我 为什么要面对那些挑战？
我 为什么要担心那些事？
而又为什么 我非得成功不可？
真的 很简单的问题 我却没有答案
也没有人 能告诉我
问这种问题 应该只会被当作疯子吧
不错 我想自己也大概是快疯了
为什么 我要关心周围的事呢？
在这种现实的社会里
明哲保生 应该才是最理智的啊
的确 我并没有经历过什么要死不活的大事
但 这社会的恐怖 这社会的尔虞我诈
却让还未开始的我感到害怕
不 应该是迷茫才对
为什么 我必须隐藏自己 在人群中生活呢？
难道就不能 勇敢一点 抛弃面具吗？
抱歉 我还是没有答案
要我赤裸裸的 面对身边的人 我真的做不到
每个人的心 都应该得建一道墙来保护自己的不是吗？
哪怕只是薄薄的石灰墙
这样一来 即使是崩溃了 也应该还有微笑的理由啊
不是吗？
曾经 有个人 要我以真诚的心对待身边的事物
这件事让我挣扎了很久
到最后 我不明白 我还是不明白
因为 除了那几位真正的朋友和家人
我真的没有办法 坦诚的 没有防护的 对待其他的人
这 就叫自私吗？
我不知道
直到那个人来告诉我真正的答案之前
我应该 永远都 不会知道
永远的 迷茫下去吧
our life is like tis..
ReplyDeletecant do anything..
sometime maybe u will feel tired or pleplexed..
i got tis feeling too..
but wat can we do?
hide from it..
no..i know we cant..
becuz tis is our life..
sometimes i got a bit desire for the end of the world..
maybe it's funny..
but at least i dun have to solve my problems anymore..
despite how u not glad..
in tis society we must pretend ourselves..
maybe will regard as "sham"..
but nowasdays..i think ppl ord used to pretend themselves le ba..
so u must add oil..
and ignore wat ppl have said..
perplexed**
ReplyDeleteya..i think so...mayb pretending is the best way to protect ourself gua...although it seems lik cheating others,n i m feeling quite sorry for them too,but i won stop doing tis until i leave.
ReplyDeleteThe end of the world is really the most efficient way to solve complicated matter..n i used to hope against it too..frankly..anyway..still cant rely on it too much wat..afterall...who ll know when is it really coming?
so...conclusion...live with a mask may be bad..but for my own good..i wont throw it away..
mayb i hav oredi forgotten how to treat ppl truthfully..but,i still hav me..n my true frens n family...tats enough..really...
i should b happy now...
ya.. u shud be happy tat bside u still hav ur fren n family..
ReplyDeleteya..
protective..
i aso like..
in frony of fren..
i'll actz as i am find..
but sometimes..
can't ..
den wit exploded it when a thing happen..
like released stress by tkd like free sparing..
if tat ppl so sueh..
den 88 la..
haha..
sometimes..
u aso muz find a solve for urself..
tat think a method tat u can released n relief ur stress n complicated..
tat like tell ur bff..jessy lo..
it's a good method
haha..maybe just like wat u and chioh yueh said..
ReplyDeletebut anyway..
we should feel lucky ya..
bcuz we have each other to share our secret..
no matter happy or sad..
we can express ourselves to eeach other..
i know pretending maybe is the best way to protech ourselves..
bcuz i did so too..
but to sb,i dun have to wear my mask..
isnt it?
tis world so got positive and negative..
just think the positive ways..
u will find tat tis world still got hope and the things will change thoroughly..
so cheer up k?=)
haha...kinda agree wif u d..ppl lik us really nid 2 find ur own way 2 release stress..onot sure ll ki xiao d..>.<but still...kinda lik the relation now^^can juz share ur secret 2gather..without any cover..mayb its bcos we r juz the same kind of ppl ba..sad n lonely ppl..haha
ReplyDeletethink positive?erm..i ll try gua..but when smtimes u r 'too' positive..or think tat tis world is still full wif joy n happiness..i bet u ll b more disapointed lol..cos the truth ll b extremely hurting..
anyway..wif yor acc..i sure ll b happy oways d lah^^