okayyyyyyyy
practically what just happened was, I'd REACHED HOME.
home, as in MY home, the one in malaysia, the one in muar.
yes, i'm back babe. :)
i know it sounds a bit unfit to the situation now
but it just somehow feels like a dream.
as if when i woke up the next morning, everything will change.
i'll be back, lying on my shitty super hard-based double decker
suffering from the super useless fan which doesn't provide any coolness
wake up facing my super small study table
with a super inconspicuous table lamp on the top
as well as the SUPER DUPER frightening cleanliness of the so called "public toilet"
and, to be frank
i really couldn't take this sudden assault of joke anymore, i just simply can't
all I ever craved for these few months is returning home
throwing myself into the hug of my family and enjoy the moment of blissfulness
even just a glimpse, I could be satisfied
yet, now, i obtained more than i wished for
i'm lying comfortably on MY queen size bed (not double decker anymore)
enjoying the breeze of air-con (not inefficient tradition fan anymore)
with a typical office table beside me (not super small study table anymore)
having MY own washroom just next door (not public toilet anymore)
HOWEVER, i feel insecure, awkward, uneasy, restless, disturbed,troubled, strained, discomfited, ill at ease, woebegone...
by the comfort i'm enjoying now?
what the freaking heck is happening to me?!
(4:30am)
yup, early in the morning
i'm still awake, suffering of insomnia
because of the extra easiness i'd never enjoyed for the past few months
what a great job you'd done EMMY TAY
so now, basically, i'm agonizing of the over-coolness of the air-con
which drove me shivering under the thickness of my comforter
facing a screen, with my almost-frozen fingers dancing on the keypad
FULLY AWAKE
freak, so side-effects do come anyway
good, what a beautiful unasleep night (okay, morning)
(4:43am)
so, good morning guys? i guess.
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