山河

haiz

haiz

haiz

holiday is really a major annoyence

lolz.....really boring ar~~!

not feeling quite well either

haHA~but went to SANGA for gathering last nite

really enjoyed it vry much

the steamboat last nite was quite tasty too

fuew~~~

ate endlessly last nite

haHA~felt lik the tummy was gonna burst

ate happily...talked happily...laughed happily

haHA~felt lik so inmate

though we hav not seen one another for some time

thanks to EMERSON n his unstopable MOUTH

lol...damn evil~

haHA~n funny too~

KL really hav made him a different person i think

haHA~

no doubt for it

erm.....

tis gathering is actually organized by TAT PERSON

lol...but i m getting used to it oredi

afterall...we still meet each other everyday

in the same class

but never thought tat the feeling ll b so...

strange?i think

well...juz act normally

tats all i can do~

feuw~~~^^

想了很多

thought about many things these days

thanks to the boring holidays==

hav nothing to do

though i noe i hav a big pile of work waiting for me

but....

juz dun hav the mood to care about tat

wat a lazy person i m huh~

laid on my bed

staring at the spinning fan

my soul seems to b coming out from my body

n roam aimlessly in the air

as if its gonna vanish in the next second

n i ve thought

wat if...i m too vanish

totally disappear in tis world

in tis universe

n by then

there wont b a person called EMMY in everybody's mind

neither my family

my fren

or the person i cared about

kinda abstract rite?

its really hard to imagine if i m no longer in tis world

if it really happens

then...who ll i b?

where ll i b?

what ll i b?

in conclusion...

i really found tat i dun noe myself

neither my mind did

who exactly am i?

is it tat necessary for me to live

in tis changing world?

wat if...i really vanished suddenly

it wont change anything rite?

everybody ll b acting juz lik normal

laugh as usual

talk as usual

juz..there is no more EMMY

no influnce...i think

haHA

wat am i thinking

looks lik i m really going nuts

@_@

救命

tis is my second post in the same day
lolz...found tat i m really unsuitable for hoidays
its driving me nuts
first msn..pps..fb...
n now back to blog again
haHA, really sweat d
why cant juz time flow juz lik school days
its really torturing now
except for sleeping
is internet
as for tat big pile of textbooks
i ll juz leave it to the last few days
its too annoying to see them now
haiz
feel tat the atmosphere is really suffocating at home
din talk to her for the whole day
or if i say
i din even see her the whole day
under the same roof!
haiz
haiz
haiz
i m gonna die soon if she continues to b lik tis
man...S.O.S...who's gonna save me???

破碎了

today,i scolded her

the person who i loved......

in the past

i obeyed every of her decisions

included those hurting ones

i can still remember tat nite clearly

the sound she opened her room door

shouted n quarreled wif tat man

n left

onli the sound of anger tat sped off the house

still resounding in my nightmares

n tat moment

i m in my room

sitting in the corner

doing nothing

not because i dont

is because i cant

i cant do anything to stop her leaving

the onli thing, is cry

i din sleep tat night

it is too quiet for me to sleep

its dark

my soul has been soaking in tears the whole nite

n now, so do i

when, when ll she change tat self-centred beheviour of hers?

when ll she stopped treating herself lik tat?

when ll she start to lov herself more than others?

i m furious

n tats why, i lost control

tat feeling is really indescribable

watching the person u loved treating herself lik tat

but u cant do nothing

except for keeping quiet

n sit in the corner

crying on yor own

tis is the second time

but she ll never know

i really hoped tat the third time ll never happen

tat feeling of scolding her is really bad

please

my heart is bleeding

please

我并不是你想象中那么勇敢

rain kept pouring since morning
n the YOU in facebook
r too soaked n vagued
the memories about YOU kept fading in mind
but in the next moment
it became clear again
that's YOU
no doubt it is
but sorry
i dun know you anymore
that voice of yours in the phone
is too unfamiliar to me
n so too the YOU in the photo
since when...did your smile become so matured
since when...did your face become so slim
n since when...did your side r full of...STRANGERS
i found out that
the YOU now is really too far for me
"S.O.R.R.Y"
that's all i can say
and another thing
"Happy Birthday"^^
mayb u ll not hear this blessing of mine
but still
i truely hope that god ll bring happiness to your side
n this pair of 'sunny dolls'
hope that they ll get rid of all your tears through the rain
n bring the most delighting weathers to YOU
everyday in your life
SORRY·HAPPY BIRTHDAY